I think I finally found the devine antidote to life.
this is probably the closest ive came to a sustained happiness with also having to let go of certain posessions whether it may be a human or something of the material sort.
tangible.
“I should warn you I go to sleep, I know you don't know what I mean yet, I get upset or happy, I go to sleep nothing hurts when I go to sleep but I'm not tired I'm not tired...”
-ben folds five
that used to be me every single day
when morning did its job the first thing that would run through my mind was when the hell was i going to be able to sleep again.

Has anyone seen my will to live, because I seem to have lost it.